i missed it

i seriously need some courage boaster



he's finally online
and i dont even have the gut to at least
say a 'hi'
keep whining about what i should do.
the rejection im afraid to face.
how speechless i am and all
till then,
the next minute.
he's offline already.
damn it
overall, i only have myself to blame.
remind me please?
its all over-



( contradicts )
i dont know how things would turn out to be
but by seeing.
how hard you've tried.
and the extent you've been going to.
its just plain irritation.




BLESSME!
saturday is like few days away alrd.
ahhhh.
its my first. and i really hope
its a memorable one.
people i need more blessing.
gimme gimme-

i really need to get my ass up
and maybe speak a lil, help a lil
and most important think a lil?
i just suck, i know
( guilt )