lowselfesteem

its sometimes hard to fight against the devil in you.
stuggling not to think that way.
but it just keep resounding in your head.
gradually convincing you.
and know what; the greatest enemy is none others
but ( yourself )



pampered myself with a clutch (:
( thanks to zilin. my benefactor alsoknownas BAD influence )
and now i have to survive with barely
bread for lunch alrd.
( you just have to sacrifies biglunches for
one small bag )
theworstthingis:
concession is ending today.
notes must be bought within this two weeks.
( exams coming )
ezlink also running out of money.
( cant take trains )
many june babies. yes, presents!
causing me a bomb!

geesze. im gonna be so dead.
i need money. mountains of money.
to feed my shopping addiction!
easycashjobbbbbs! where?



- this reminds me of queenie.
( my sec sch dance instructor )
she has always been saying.
she need dancers for shows.
and she will contact us ( sec dancemates ) bout it.
or even being assistant dance instructor for her and all.
but she NEVER did. never -
grrfgh-


class is finally more LIKE a class now.
peaceful (: loving the way it is like now.
cause at least nomore problems btw each other.
thou we still aint very close ( or rather NOT close )
hardly talk. the most a hi-bye
but all i ask for is peace (:




when expectation are not reached
and you feel so lousy.
you just feel like suiciding-
the least you can do is to work harder i guess.
( i need more self motivations )
my first step shall be forcing myself to go for all the
sat classes and going for more snw if possible.
yup. gogo!
and maybe go hunt for a confidence boasting remedy.
( far more to go )



happyb'day to my dearest XUAN!
this doesnt mean you can go for more clubbings you know!
hugs!




i hope i've judged her wrongly