insecurities

close to hearing you,
far from seeing you.
near to loving you,
further from having you.



theres sth i hated sooo much about myself
like whenever i did sth which seems TOTALLY fine, at least to me.
conscience clear, not sth i should hide/or be guilty of,
i know.
but still i'll be afraid of how/what others might think.

that is also why,
im ALWAYS afraid to meet new people i'll feel so goddamn uncomfortable
like cos first impression counts and i just hate so much to be judged
and and..

schools reopening soon, and it kinda suck.