worthless.

all screwed up.

i couldnt reach her.
maybe shes busy or something,
i dont blame her for that.
but when i finally pluck up all courage
to like call.
hes sort of busy.
saying he'll get back to me
but he never did.
thanks for proving me wrong.
being decieved and all
by what you said earlier.
'' you really hope i'll be there ''
but it contradicts somehow.
the words. and the action.
i tried consoling myself.
maybe you're busy. and all
all kind of excuse i could think of.
but it didnt help much. ( i guess )
and im glad at least.
i had the others there. to accompany.
that i dont have to be heading home
alone.
im grateful. i really am.




and at some point of time.
i really hate you.





yayyys.
and the performance is finally over.
and to add on.the organiser kind of suck.
indecisive. demanding and yada yada.
wanted us to finish all hair and make-up by 15 mins.
but our prog got pushed to an hour later.
tskkk.
but no matter what we're like. PAID
( thou its going back to NP )
so make everything worhwhile.
experience and all.
doing hair without hair gel and comb.
ahahha. so weird.
but we do have very nice hair done anyway.
and obviously think mine kinda look weird.
first time dancing without my fringe. boohoo.
feel so uneasy.
sight too clear alrd.
audience and crowd just.
make me so nervous.
and i keep wanting to PEE!
grrfgh.
but overall. i think its pretty okie.
( i think )
and i just pray joanna faster send me video.
ahaha. im excitedd! (: