i'm kinda shocked by how i reacted.
really i am.
why am i feelin this way now..
extremely disappointed in myself.
i should be happy i should.
but deep down in me.
i know maybe i'm not.
i dont wanna think.
i dont wanna imagine.
i just dont wanna compare.
how i hope how i hope things din went as smooth.
but it did.
voices screaming inside me.
saying. kill that evil thought.
i feel being intruded. taken over.
seems so much like a threat.
honestly. i hate the way i am right now.