tick-tock-tick.. time just seems not to be moving todae..

i suddenly felt so moodless while listen to some 'lecturessss'..

when ppl are like asking me 'why?'

i just merely say i'm feeling tired and those craps..

but i know its not just cause of that..

i just suddenly feel like i've accidentally
stepped into the wrong world...having the wrong frequency..
althou everything in dere seems so real..
its like i'm beginning to lose my usual self..
keep asking myself... '' why the hell am i doing this?''
this question just keep revolving within me..
just couldnt regconise myself animoreee...

i know all this while, i've stopped the time in yr 2004..
time where i was back in jss..
time whr i've been with all 4-2 peeps..
trying hard to get myself out of reality..
how i hope i can just tune back time..
now in my class peoples are oso great
but i just dun seems to fit in..

it have been ages since i last sang songs in class..
it has been decades since i last stayed back in sch
wid frens just to rot,slack and crap like hell..
it has been century since i last went out wid
classmates after sch to shop or catch a movie..
and of cos it has dunno been how long since i
last went out with frens to ktv..singing like crazy
ppl in da room.. jumping up and downn..

the onli time i really luff my heart out in 'this world'
was tt nite i wentout wid zk and gab outside
the sch campusss...they made me once again
know wats the feeling of luffin till i had jaw-achess..
and oso finally found myself when i was having auditionn..
simply just dance like nobody's businessss..
but after tt.. i seems to look into the mirror and doubt again..

+i miss singing in class with jas...
+i miss seeing zilin standing outside da class
...waiting fer us during recesses...
+i miss sitting wid yiqin and laming wid her..
+i miss listening to kaiwen's lame jokesss...
+i miss wei shu mini concert in class performing 'hai dao'
+i miss bearr's laughterrr...
+i miss the way shuting use to beat me..
+i miss those stupid face that shazwan use to make..
+i miss playing with emily and sukmun's tamagochi..
+i miss the talks i use to have wid yuhui bout clay aiken..
+i miss times whr we bully derrick telling him to carry
...ourbooks home during the spring cleaning period..
+i miss our study clique during exams period
[[esp when 'o' is approaching..]]
+i miss timmes whr we use to tell mr lee dun 'aum jhio'
...and calling him moley lee.. XD
+i MISS the way 4-2 peeps used to 'kai-dong' togetherrrr....
[[ simply zai~ like hell ]] uurrrgggghhh~

i know i might seems crazy but i just missssss demmm...
ever since going into polyyy..things just seems to be sO different...
and till now i still have the habit of waiting fer everybodi
to settle down wid their food and saying '1,2,3 kai dong' and
later den found out like so stupiddd.. but i just so used to it...
thinkin tt i needa survive this type of life fer
3 yrs ish like torture to me..LM'o4 ppl rocksss tooo..
but ish just that..i feel as if their frm a different worlddd..
a world totally diff frm mine.. i just needa bear wid it...

[[4-2 rocksss my worldddddddddddddd~]]