i n s a n i t y

really dunno wats going on..
really dunno wat haf i done wrong..
just feelin downnnn..
downnn.. downnnnnn...

actually wanna find a place fer me to
empty my tots...
vent all my angerrrr...
a place fer me to hideee..
a place whr i can be myselfff..
where i dun needa put up a brave front
when i am nottttt....
thinking tat.. blog might be the onli wayyy..
but.. after lotsa thinking here and deree..
dun think i wanna publicize it..
dun wanna haf frens asking me wats happening to me..
dun wann dem to be worrieddd tooo...
i rather bear it myselfffff...
dun wanna haf ppl kinda gib me those..
'' i-pity-euuu '' kinda expressionnnn..
but..
seems tat i'm on the verge of breaking downnn...
wonder how long can i still hold on...
cos now nobody seems to be able to pull me thruuu..
nobody seems to be able to helpppp..

`everydae hafta force out a smile..
`make ppl think tt i'm okieeee...
`cos i dun wanna worsen the situationnn...

+when i'm here screaming fer helppp...
+nobody seems to be thereeee...
+when i'm here alone bearing all thesee..
+nobody seems to careeeee....