until a brighter day

LAST ENTRY I HOPE

2008-08-06T02:21:00.003+08:00

in case theres STILL slowpokes like ~~grace~~ tan chiew loo. LOL
i'll not definitely but most probably be moving to

http://hope-full.tumblr.com !

i kinda like writing & posting there.
click on the tab 'love letters' to leave a note :$

oh! fyi i wont be deleting this acc luh. IN CASE i uhm regret & uhm you know (:

muchlove, iloveyou iloveyou
peiyi

feeling occupied with the wrong things

2008-07-30T02:17:00.000+08:00

hope-full.tumblr.com

im desperately looking for a list of ppl to 'follow'
nicole im not hinting you (:

maybe i should switch to tt instead of blogspot.
myriad intricacies is like so wth.
i had it many many years ago thinking it was chim.
kids lah dont blame.

not some weird picture post

2008-07-27T12:51:00.003+08:00

i had the most thrilling parking experience w/ her (:

ah song we'll miss you ):

this doesnt look like its taken from a 2 megapix cam riiight?
ahaha! tho i still like my samsung the best. ayyee

tumblr.com

2008-07-27T11:53:00.003+08:00

“ You know what’s wrong with you,
Mr Whoever-you-are? You’re chicken, you’ve got no guts.
You’re afraid to stick out your chin and say,
“Okay, life’s a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that’s the only chance anybody’s got for real happiness.”
You call yourself a free spirit, a “wild thing,”
and you’re terrified somebody’s gonna stick you in a cage.
Well baby, you’re already in that cage. You built it yourself.
And it’s not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land.
It’s wherever you go.
Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
-Breakfast at Tiffany’s.

i just keep falling. over & over.
this is for you

http://sleepanddream.tumblr.com/

tumblr.com !
maybe i should try signing up someday.
anyhow, you can like link to many other tumblr sites frm there.
some have gt really interesting pictures & quote (:
like the 2 above ! heh

floating humans

2008-07-24T02:25:00.002+08:00

goodnight people (:

&& happy bday joyce tan chiew loo !
tmrs your day i hope you know.
slowpoke! lol

the cause and cure

2008-07-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

I almost did plenty of things with you
that I know i would have come to regret very very much
for too many reasons

I did not
and that may be what I regret most.

mornings

2008-07-20T17:33:00.001+08:00

(((((:
i know this makes me sound as if im 28,
but to be honest i dont mind (at this point of time) such an irritant at home.
seems kinda cute eh and could be the perfect wakeup call.

i get her an alarm and she could be mine ! :D
so i could wakeup everyday smiling (i hope) & no more smashing of clocks
or pressing the snooze button den end up late. riiiiight?
like some smart idea ! :D

p.s above content is very much based on how i feel upon seeing tt pic
but if it were to be some kid pulling hair & squeezing faces,
that kind I MIND ! VERRRRY

holding maps like love letters

2008-07-16T00:26:00.003+08:00

finally ! :D

i didnt know our transformer looked tt bad!
AHAHAHA!
frm the picture it seems like its a huge pile of trash
oh well, sorry xiangtian. our bad ):
we should have wrapped most with aluminium foil
instead of just happily taping and taping! lol

happy yvonne

caught vic yawninnnnng.
wq's retarded smile
& not forgetting vic's stunned face at the backgrd LOL

<3 !!!
theres more photos but im js helplessly lazy!
you could kop them frm nicolestar.multiply !
theres dozens ! heh

not waving but drowning

2008-07-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

bazaaaaar

2008-07-09T02:38:00.001+08:00

tho there isnt much profit
but i thought its enjoyable (:
thanks for dropping by! some of you
:D:D

lost

2008-07-09T01:16:00.002+08:00

anouk - lost.wma -

(:
you should watch the choreography to this song !

i know mia michaels is like super duper ultimate genius kind
all her choreos are like suuuuuuuuper amazing
&we all also know we dont have to post anything much bout her
since theres ppl like fredy.
lol
so i js thought you might wanna watch this if you havent.
its frm mandy moore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=n_Qvj-zTvBQ
!!!!!

one thing that remains the same
you're still a picture in a frame

EH YOU!

2008-07-07T13:54:00.002+08:00

occupying a booth tmr (tues) in sch ! :D
whoever you you you, ngee ann poly student
please show some love (:

that stretch outside convention centre!
i got a feeling there will be crowd
crowd of hungry people passingby but not stopping
its always liddat :/
i used to be one of them.

but nvm THINK ABOVE THE LINE & HAVE FAITH.
BELIEVE THEN SEE!
i applied 3 of them & lets hope it works tmr.
please please please
$.$

courageous

2008-07-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

not quite sure what it is.
perhaps a giant kite?
but its pretty :D

p.s the dance by charlotte martin nv fail to give me goosebumps
everytime i listen to it :/

delightful

2008-07-02T02:22:00.000+08:00

camp's over! (:
through it i guess i understood some people a lil better
some srsly ren bu ke mao xiang.
ppl like joel AHAHA!
but its fun luh.
most of the time i laughed till i cramped :D

anw i totally like the 'thankyou note' session !
it just felt nice to be able to write a note to someone
saying you appreciate his/her presence (:
even better if you received one
i totally didnt expect i'll receive a few of them
but still thankyou ! (:
i was js super duper ultimate happy! :D
even if its js a hug frm ppl like wilbert tan! (gt nth much to say to me)
or a handshake frm zx cos hes js tooooo lazy. lol

now i cant wait for camp pics!
anyone? SEND ME !

p.s it actually felt THAT good
to be able to get something off your chest.
js tt lil step& tt lil courage
or rather alot of courage

thanks (:

betting on uncertainty

2008-06-27T02:30:00.002+08:00

it'll be nra's camp tmr !

im not too sure if i should feel excited bout it
since i've always used to hate camps.
now still !
the number of camps i've been to are like pathetic,
TWO? lol
i know its quite unbelievable
whats worse,
i've never been through any nightwalks or campfire before.
im thankful for the nightwalk part to be honest,
but campfire just sounds fun!
fyi im suppose to have campfire during sec 3 camp
but that very night, super suay night theres a blackout and it was called off ):
godknows why? blackout and campfire just dont seems to link

ayye
i hope camp will be fun.
will be more enjoyable if theres heater in sch.
okay im kidding.
not really?

goodnight people

not near

2008-06-24T03:24:00.001+08:00

I don't know when the boys
began to walk away with parts of myself
in their sticky hands; when loving
became a process of subtraction. Or why,
having given up what seems so much,
I'm willing to lose even more — erasing
all this body's known, relearning it with you.

love letter - melissa stein

i mean it
can you hear me?

---------------------------------------
okay draw the line enough of emo nemo-ing
im just hoping i can huat soon!
$.$
AHAHHAHA !
tts all tt matters now.
(:

!!!!!!

2008-06-23T03:58:00.001+08:00

okay like promised the very very late picture post !

i cant edit them tho cos i have yet to install photoshop
in the desktop
and i dontknow how to configure my router so i cant surf
with my laptop
AHHHHH a whole string of techical probs can! super screwed

but i believe we dont have to edit the pics to look good luh uh
so its not exactly a prob (:

STUDIO WUUUUUUU

i kinda miss all studio wu ppl ! ):
kinda random but idk why i like this pic hah!the apologise couplesthe money ppl !the guys& them being extremely sexy which comes so uhh naturally?the girls the house ppl (:

afterwhich its TBG!
if im not wrong hes BON

if im not wrong which i think i wont be
hes dominic !

okay this im ultimate super duper wooper bruiegboghrwhr sure
hes YOKOIIIIIIIIIIIIII :D !
& hes my ou xiang <3

alright pictures up for grab!
goodnight friends (:

all smiling (:

2008-06-21T04:20:00.001+08:00

NET IS BACK!

(no, net is not a friend you retard)

MY INTERNET IS BACCCCCCCCCCCCCCK! :DD

im so freakin happy i must blog at this freakin hour

like 4:31AM

life w/o internet is

depressing i tell you! YET healthy

in a way you'll not be very happy with

you get to sleep at bout 12 everynight

BECAUSE you got nothing else to do at home.

)):

& now it also means i'll get to post all the overdue pictures!

my TBG YOKOIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !

& studio wu pictures!

i know super overdue alrd

but for yokoi's i insist i wanna post lol!

perhaps tmr (:

okay goodnight ppl

i've got work in uhmmm 6 hours time in town

&i need sleeeeeeeeeeeeep !

OHHH and wq!

welcome back (:

&&&

happy bday orange ! (:

a bigthankyou

to you know who you are

i wouldnt have made it through those days w/o you guys

desperate

2008-06-16T18:06:00.001+08:00

will it be whole again?

what i would rather not have

at this point of time,

is verbal assurance.

BED. i need my bed

2008-06-06T02:02:00.000+08:00

todays one of those days, that i can hardly feel my limbs anymore.

SO freakin worn-out i walked all the way home with a hunched back ):

which makes me, (yes, shimin) ah ma. lol

we'll make it worthwhile! (:

all the efforts tt we've put it.

WUUUUUU!

(its the lousiest grp cheer EVER!

in the whole entire nra history i believe HAHA)

& best of all

i'll be able to see YOKOI this sunday!

((((((((((((((((:

just one picture

one picture with him!

pleeeeeeeeease?

fleeting moment

2008-06-02T02:50:00.002+08:00

idk how am i gonna to make it happen

but i will.

it couldnt be more broken anyway.

2008-05-27T01:53:00.001+08:00

im so broke now

im bout to rob a bank !

found!

2008-05-25T02:58:00.003+08:00

Security is mostly a superstition

Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing

-helen keller

i know yen posted this on her blog before. lol

but i like this quote so much i HAVE to post it here

so then i'll be happy (:

and this,

I am only one, but I am one.

I can not do everything, but I can do something.

I must not fail to do the something that I can do.

GENIUS GENIUS GENIUS!

with all my heart

2008-05-20T01:54:00.002+08:00

i love you

mum&dad (:

tho at times we argue over the tiniest possible thing

& get really childish by having cold wars

HAHHAHA!

i love you

we'll all go overseas someday

when i've saved enough.

&& mummy you can shop for all you want okay?

so you can stop stealing my clothes.

lol

i miss this clumsy furball
ALOT ):

p.s i realised i haven been taking pictures with them for so freaking long alrd

these are all taken 4 years back with this lousy panasonic phone ! :/

&my eyes look so DAMN small in the second pic can. idk why.

let it be

2008-05-17T03:24:00.002+08:00

physically drained but happy! :D

p.s: all the best to blackjack!

& i hope i dont break my wrist tmr. HAHA

flipping class! flipping class! ((:

-roll in circles

sometimes all you need is to feel needed

2008-05-15T01:36:00.002+08:00

stayover was fun ytd ! (:

we did nothing much

cept for like maybe eating, watching shit thai dvd w/ confusing sub-titles

(fyi the female lead's name is 'the'. how brilliant)

and den factory girl

which i fell asleep at the middle of it.

but still its good.

i kinda like stayovers.

esp when i've got a bed all by myself

HAHHAHAHAHHA !

eh wait i have to clarify this, mae is supposed to share w/ me you see.

but idk why she ended up below :/

oh before i forget,

i was just telling su this afternoon.

somtimes i wonder, how much more i may be able to archieve

or maybe be a better person if only im less lazy.

tsk

the last straw

optimism. OP-TI-MI-SM

2008-05-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

feel like returning to the shell

where once i was a seed,

a dream.

no failures,

just potential.

try harder (:

you can go ahead and assume tards.

NOT what you're thinking.

tell me how did we get here?

2008-05-09T03:08:00.001+08:00

days aft graduation have been SOOO good

im finding all sorts of excuses not to find a job.

hah

its just the income that is really bothering me.

adding on to it is when i've heard of

what qin is gg through..

ayeee

few more days to go okay?

till then you can call me &complain for all you want

i wont charge you.

somemore incoming call free HAHAHA

tts not the point la. but uhmm..

so im pretty contented with how life is now.

at least no office bitches !

im guessing it has nothing to do with me.

i should be glad i know

but im not.

to feel used. whatever

2008-05-06T04:11:00.002+08:00

4.16am !

this is crazy

i need to get some sleep

as much as i want to

my mind's not resting.

i need to fcking stop thinking

distractions

2008-05-05T18:22:00.001+08:00

FIND A JOB !

to love at all is to be vulnerable (edit)

2008-05-05T02:28:00.008+08:00

i've always love long bus ride home but
NOT when its w/o the nano.
its unbearable srsly.
you'll feel so alone its scary.
esp when you're the only one left at the upper deck

nice! ):

den i stared at my phone &started thinking,
why the hell did it ring so much

when im studying or worse when im busy
but when i really wants it to ring

it went mute !!

uhm so..
i spent my one hour twenty mins in the bus

stoning, ppl watching, thinking bout dumb stuff (like the one above)
& got abit happier when it went passed the singapore flyer (:

ONE pointless entry

sidenote:

wilbert tan thanks for being such an ass friend

you'll get it from me when you come back.

LOL

this comes abit too late but still,

takecare tard (:

keep trying

2008-05-01T03:42:00.000+08:00

as much as i hope i could make you unds ):

blithe

2008-04-29T01:51:00.002+08:00

rmb our labour day date! tan zilin! (:

idk why i've always got this habit to call you by full name. lol

oh anw,

im glad we finally met up!

FINAAAAAAALLY!

tho we didnt do much but its the campany tt matters !

quite cliche but uhm nvm limited engrish

i love you much! :D

can you hold me in your mind,

as i reach to hold on for a while.

can you hold me in your dreams,

as i struggle to see you smile.

what if i never make it home?

2008-04-27T17:26:00.005+08:00

She tries it on,

like a dress.

She decides it doesn't fit,

and starts to take it off.

Her skin comes, too.

- Love; Lola Haskins

days have been good so far (:

especially these few days.

just tt im missing studio, im missing dance,

im missing flat hair aft every dance lesson (okay not really)

& im missing school !

i know the last part is weird.

but really, i kinda miss gg back to school for lesson.
not those 8am class of cos

pigtures

2008-04-24T01:41:00.001+08:00

now picture post part 2 ! (:

since i've got nothing better to do

and i've recieved so many more pics from the rest

i'll post more (:

woohoooo -does tiko face to su

but somehow most of the pics are retarded ones like this:

theres actually some MUUUUUUCH worse than this but its okay
we can skip tt (:

whatever it takes
trust me, whatever it takes

you

2008-04-22T02:14:00.001+08:00

idontknow why im like blogging 2 entries in an hour

but i just found this and i thought i wanna share with you guys.

im starting to believe that ocean's much like you

because it gives & it takes away.

the only thing that i tried to hold on to

2008-04-22T01:26:00.002+08:00

all i was then

will be there still

i'll let it pass

and hold my tongue

"takecare"

more than anything else

2008-04-20T16:26:00.005+08:00

PICTURE HEAVY POST ! (:

i hope this heading makes you sliiiiiighty more excited. lol

like 2 years ago danzation,

im alrd starting to miss FANTAZIA alrd !

all the items, people, showcase and GANCHIONG quickchange.

oh well i have to admit, i screwed it up for the first day ):

& i was really mad at myself.

for making mistakes that i've least expected myself to.

but at least i believe i made it up on the second. (to myself i mean)

fyi it was actually one of those few times i truely enjoyed myself on stage.

instead of the usual fake smiles, wobbly legs and sweaty palms cos im just

toooooooooo freakin nervous.

i actually felt excited on the second night.

i believe tt was partly the reason why i guess i

'zou huo ru mo'-ed during showcase.

HAHHAHAHAHHA !

i would like to say a big

'THANKYOU'

to zilin, the bf, meiyan and siling

for coming down despite the busy schedule (:

you guys have no idea how happy i am to be able to see you guys there.

esp zilin, since we haven seen each others for like a thousand years alrd.

im really glad you came. reeeeeeally !

now everyone thats tan zilin my bestest of all best best best friend ! (:
& 27th apr dearest ! meetup meetup.

meiyan and siling!
i love you girls just as much. (yes! szegee too)
the 7 years of friendship! it didnt come by easy
considering how much tt we've been through.
but im really glad you girls are ALWAYS around.
ALWAYS so supportive.
& im quite sure, or rather VERY sure we'll still be there
for each other when we turn sixty (:

ANN, the superwoman!

thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou!

thankyou for all the opportunity,

guidance, advices, for the time you spent with us,

or even for picking me during the audition so i could be part of nra now,

for everything and everything.

i love you (:

you're seriously the most amazing instructor ever !

also i'll like to say a big thankyou to the following people

for helping me out during the quickchange.

if not for guys i believe i'll most probably get ultra pissed with myself.

since im so disorganise the whole world knows ):

KAIJIA!

shes a 'must-thank' really!

but i dont have our pictures in my cam eh :/

anw kaijia thankyou so so so much!

for being so patient, so responsible and SORRY tt im so disorganise

im guilty. really.

its funny how you tell me you're surprised to know im actually this sort when

initially you thought im those who iron clothes and fold clothes at home.

HAHAHAHAHHAHA!

im flattered tho. i've got 'hao lao po' look ((((((((:

& i couldnt have imagine how shitty i'll look like if i dont have you ard to help me

THANKYOU !!!

and also vannessa, ninian and xinxian!

thankyou so much (:

and also im thankful to have all the people below

it makes fantazia even more memorable to me (:

(in random order)

my friendless friend, mae ! ivan!
i really enjoy working with you & i hope we did fine for ken's showcase (:
BEC!
buiiii (:
daph!
i get all emotional everytime i hear you sing 'tribute' lol
and i hope to see you again (:
i had the craziest and happiest time with you girls
and thanks so much. i've learnt so much from
every single one of you.
love !'wangwing wo ai ni!' LOL tt was totally random
i dontknow what got into me when i said tt. but anyway

im glad to have you ard. always (:
and did i tell you, you look amazing dancing ni bu zai really ! shimin ! allegra! amazing amazing amzing dancer (:
ariel ! i'll miss you (:
su su su ! thanks for the cookie its so nice i almost thought you bought it and
not bake it.

shufang! thanks for the card silly girl (: shoutkie!
ah song i've no idea why you like this picture so much
but uhmm.. maybe you find yourself quite handsum in here. idk. lol fredy! thanks for putting me in helena. i really really enjoy dancing tt item.
thankyou for being so patient, so understanding and so retarded.
HAHAHAHA kidding la.
you're the BEST friend alrd srsly.
thanks so much wilbert tan juay hong! (:

theres so much more ppl i'll like to thank.
ppl like ronnie, xuejing, xiangtian and cash
im glad i've got the chance to work with you guys.

lastly,

i thank fantazia for everything.

LOL
kiiiiiding la.

really sincerely, im glad im a part of fantazia.
a part of nra (:

and now i cant wait for danzation 2008 !!

sidenote:

tho it doesnt feel good to know thats how

much i mean to you now.

but still. thankyou !

sick cycle carousel they said

2008-04-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

im quite certain i must be out of my mind,
to even think it'll happen. reeeeeeeeeetard!

FOURTEEN of april now my god!
im not kidding you!
which is like THREEEEEEE more days?
-hyperventilates

gasping

2008-04-10T02:07:00.004+08:00

firstly, i'll like to reply some tags.

to ks and ivan (or even sinyang): seriously dont put all the blame on yourselves! im at fault too and for tt i felt lousy, really. i need to say, sorry guys if at any point of time i make you feel like im a lousy senior. maybe too lazy, too thamjia or maybe even too humji. i get tt all the time from yen they all ): quite depressing i know. lol

and to be honest, i wouldnt even think its ronnie's fault cause i believe everybody tried and maybe we just didnt try hard enough. perhaps we just need more time to train but we dont have tt amount of time left. so lets not feel depressed bout it yes? fantazia is like NEXT WEEEEK! jiayou for the other items (: JEEAAAH !

to xuan and qin tt dumbass: im not dead can! but im JOBLESS ): after 2 months im still jobless! LOOOL this is bad. qin at least you went for interviews eh. i didnt even go for any. anw please date me out sooooon and maybe drop me random text! i'll be like soooooooo happy! i miss you two ):

to wq and minz: so happen i was talking to min ma. so i.. i.. shared it with her :/ HAHAHA
but really too funny alrd. anw tho i blogged bout it but nobody know what im talking bout what. i also didnt state you said romanturn instead of momentum ): LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

i couldnt believe i reacted the way i did.
and whats worse, it happened twice this week!
nvm i promise there wont be a third time.
at least not anytime sooon.

lucks to everyone who have yet to buy their costumes.
time is running out!
and i havent got mine too (:
tell me whats worse than wearing grey trackpants and
ahbeng fantazia shirt for the entire song&dance you tell me!

stronger stronger stronger stronger stronger stronger

i bet you havent realise

2008-04-07T14:19:00.002+08:00

all over again (:

wq's romanturn kinda made my day. HAHAHHAHAHAAHA

classic !

im craving for botak jones at this hour. fishandchips fishandchips

2008-04-03T01:41:00.002+08:00

i've only got self pracs tmr !! from like 3 to 5 (:
you can like try to picture how happy i am now !!
with a BIG wide smile. stretched to the maximum.

not tt i dont enjoy gg to studio, but i've been sooo occupied with
dance and tuitions i've hardly got any time left for myself or
even my family and friends
i dont even get to talk to my mum this few days.
its THAT bad!
by the time i reached home shes alrd asleep and
the next ~~morning~~ afternoon when i wake up shes alrd
out for work ):

fantazia is like 2 weeks away?
OH MY!
im just freaking worried.
okay. thats contradicting.
i was just rejoicing over the fact tt i've got no dance trg at night tmr
and here now im like really worried cos i think i suck at quite a number of items ):
oh well,
i promise (to myself) i wont slack for tmrs self prac.
well, i said tt ALLLLLL the time but somehow everytime i'll still slack for abit.
at least :/

i'll survive through this!
uhms limited self-motivating sentences i've got.
i re-use it all the time. for funka or maybe even since as long as danzation
HAHAHHA!
but who cares.
at least it works for me.

noone

2008-03-27T02:36:00.002+08:00

//edit

typed a whole chunk of nasty things.
posted it for less than an hour and i've decided
maybe i should js write it down somewhere personal.
nowhere is safe anymore.
not when shit aft shit, problem aft problem is waiting in line for me.

i srsly need a break away from those 'people'

i dont expect.
not anymore

guilt trip

2008-03-22T03:03:00.000+08:00

its not worth it i know ):

titletitletitle

2008-03-14T22:06:00.005+08:00

STILL stuck at home ):
i swear i got nothing better to do.
i even played yahoo games with terfunk for the very first time.
cos we're both TOOO bored.
den now, in case you dontknow i set my blog as my homepage,
i got so sick of it i changed it to basic.
which i think looks much spacious now.

AND GOODNEWS!
i got B for wss. AHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA !
how amazing! i got like most of the calculations wrong including my barcode.

to breathe my last breath in your arms

p.s oh wait, in case you were thinking whos that in the picture on the left, shes kate moss. but i dont really like her anyway. i just kinda like the picture.

pig. indeed

2008-03-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

fried brain

2008-03-13T21:29:00.001+08:00

!!!

at last i've gt time to blog :D jiang-jiang

supposed to be super busy today as well,

i've got work, dance, and its mum's bday (i haven even gotten the present yet)

but i end up spending the whole day in bed !

endlessly whining, complaining, cursing and sweating with 3 thick layers

of blanket wrapped around me.

even so, i felt loved! HAHHAHAHAHHAA

with parents around, and my brother is home as well! surprisingly (:

tho their happily gambling in the other room w/o me,

but STILL i felt less alone with those random swearing

and laughing from them. AHAHA

&results will be out tmr !

i just hope for a ALL pass pleeeeease.

at times when i feel being misunderstood, lousy, frustrated, alone or even happy!

i just cant seem to find myself enough reasons to text you, not anymore.

or even just merely tell you i hope you'll still listen, i hope it hasnt changed..

you made me

2008-03-05T01:02:00.001+08:00

repulsion so strong
it sickens in seconds;
disgust rotting
in my lungs.

a hatred fierce enough
to shatter spines
ricochets off the mirror,
splitting into voices
shrill and sharp,
dancing around the room.
i turn away from those eyes
with disgust, so fearful
and wretched and weak.

at least you made me realised,
it takes so little for me to hate you.

for some things i'll rather not know.
some things.
so many things.

sings, graduation!

2008-02-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

i've unofficially graduated !
((((((((((((:
tho i've got a feeling i'll most probably fail wss and repeat another sem.
thats the worse scenerio alrd.
i was still thinking tt im a genius. i could cover the entire 7 chaps
in a day. like aiyah SEVEN only.

so i spent like the rest of the two days
gambling, steamboating and chilling :/
den in the end i screwed up all my calculations.
how genius..
BUT ! at the same time i believe yeo will be kind enough
to give me 10% for attendance and another 10% for tutorials.
that makes 20% !! plus my projs and everything uhms
maybe i'll be lucky enough to get a D.

im too lazy to blog alrd.
nothing in significant i'll like to blog about anyway.
im just rather happy and contented with like almost
everything right now.
minus away the part tt im SERIOUSLY broke &i've got
only $9.45 left in my bank acc !

you know who you are

2008-02-16T01:21:00.001+08:00

you,
i know you're trying to make the day easier for me (:
&im glad i woke up late. lol
so i could then start my day with a smile.
and laughed to myself aft counting & WOW! its my fav number. lol !
thanks !

you,
its enough to prove your statement
'we dontknow how to be friends with each other'.
but i'll still learn. i'll try.
at least this is the only thing left that i can
do for the better of us both.

i pretended i didnt know you told a lie

2008-02-15T23:19:00.004+08:00

BUCKCHERRY - SORRY

uhm i think josh todd looks kinda hot in this vid. loool

oh I, Had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things werent the same
Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
and when i see you cry, it makes me wanna die

Im sorry im bad, im sorry im blue
im sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

This time, i think im to blame
Its harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
and when i see you cry, It makes me wanna die

Im sorry im bad, im sorry im blue
im sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

Every single day i think about how we came all this way
the sleepless nights and the tears you cried
Its to late too make it right, oh yeah

Im sorry im bad, im sorry im blue
im sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

Im sorry

goodbye to the many splitends, tangled, long hair

2008-02-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

i've decided to update some pictures today!
perhaps my last set of pictures with those disgusting extensions on.
i've finally took them all off ! ((((((:
im SUPER happy yet also extremely depressed,
looking at the amount of hair i've dropped.
SERIOUSLY. its way beyond how much you think it is.
but nehmind. at least now im no longer wearing other ppl's hair.
all mine. little, thin, flat but MINE :D
(trying to act optimistic)

so some of us went over to allegra's place for steamboat on her bday.
idk why but i reeally like this picture. got family feel. okay whatever. loool

putting aside the fact tt i gt fat face. wq looks like a fish! AHHAHAHAHAHAHA

after some new year shopping with wq! we didnt buy much but we've gt serious tired face.

and below. MY CLASSMATES ! (:
but w/o weif and the rest cos they went off early :/

qin that dumbass and gab

back soon with pictures of new haircut !
which is like the day when i feel super ultra good bout myself and that my hair looks reeeally really hot. LOOOOL. hopefully tomorrow (:

cause you always have ways to make me feel better. thanks

REEEEEEEEUNION DINNER !!!

2008-02-06T02:25:00.000+08:00

this picture makes me feel happier each time i look at it (:
idk who he is (obviously) but he definitely has the cutest smile !
if only i have a kid with a smile like his,
i'll spoil him with all the clothes,toys and everything he wants.
super cute !

note to self: theres actually so much more out there,
dont let things like that put you down.
esp when its chinese new year eve tmr!

meaning reunion dinner tmr!
tmr tmr tmr tmr !
you'll never be able to unds how much i look forward to it.
perhaps its only on day like this that we get to
at least have a proper meal tog.
my brother is always everywhere else but not at home.

and most importantly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLEGRA!
(tho i know you most prob wont get to read this)
but i still have to tell you,
you have no idea how much i idolise you.
so please take good care of yourself!
while you dance, please FEEL yourself more.
dont end up having lots of cuts w/o knowing why. lol
keep dancing &
i love you vaness! :D

if only you were nice enough to at least spare a thought
for how i might feel..

mistakes arent always regrets

2008-02-04T01:27:00.000+08:00

at least,

i get what you mean now.

surprisingly,
it hurts quite abit

funka finals (:

2008-01-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

i hope weifeng doesnt get to read this,

if not she is gg to be soooooooo mega mad at me.
i should be editing my report at this time but

im blogging :/ nvm.

the reason why im taking such a big risk to post this entry is because,

i cant wait to post up all the funka pics!

some are so freakin funny, wq and i laughed like shit!

photo like this! LOOOOOOOOOOL

the super zhong xie face. like literally EVERY single one of us look funny

cept for maybe allegra but mygod look at wq and yen they gt the same expression.

and mae looks scary. HAHAHA i look SUUUUUUPER retardedly funny !

and this, yen and i were talking. i remember i was telling her 'jiayou' at this point of time and we got caught on camera. LOOOL!

i look extremely happy in this picture ((: HAHA and allegra srsly, you (once again) reminds me of vanness. idk why!

ah bert! (:
the oversized cap makes me look like i've got a pot on my head ): but the cap is super duper ultra nice srsly!

LASTLY,

im srsly at a lost of words ): i dontknow what more to say other than THANK YOU!
(harnah i know this sentence super over-used alrd. but I REEEEEALLY dont know what else to say la)
theres so much that i've learnt all this while &im alrd starting to miss all the night trainings i had with you guys.

to wangwing: thanks for being there all these while (: & PLEEEEEEEASE improve on your sewing skill like srsly. SEW COSTUMES FOR HOW MANY TIMES ALRD!! still sew until like that !!! honestly like primary school kid sewing!! LOL

to vanness: CONGRAAAAAAATS! (((((: you're srsly too man alrd. i almost thought best male dancer was you. HAHHAHA! kidding la. im so DAMN happy for you can! please take good care of yourself okay? you can like cut yourself 3 times in one trg, srsly :/

to shoutkia: we cannot do anymore obscene pose alrd ): &no more weird 'something' clinging onto me alrd ): LOOOOL! srsly i wonder how can your lower body movement be so big it scares me! oh anyway DONT EAT TOO MUCH CHAO FAAAAN !!! (i never shout at you :/)

to ah bui: zui! you can like stop laughing at my eating corn thing alrd i tell you ! you idiot! silent break !! :$ lol damn secondary school. anyway im starting to miss all your nags alrd. no wonder shimin say you're damn naggy. indeed! AHHAA. but i know its for the benefit of the whole grp la so.. haaaaaaarmah thanks! (:

to twin: you know at times we really dont mean what we say. and i truely love you. LOOOL. its always good to have you ard, reminding us that we have to stay focus. implementing the fine $5 rules. tho we always shuddup or 5 mins den started making noise all over again. lol

to mae: speaking of you reminds me of all your funny shit. LOL how you always like to scold yen and ask her to shuddup. hah! anw thanks for making the effort to source for the costumes despite your busy schedule. if not i think we'll be like all too lazy and end up wearing tt zombie costumes alrd.

LASTLY LASTLY,

congrats to edee vance, soul out crew and SONGKIA !!!! (:

more than anything else in this world

2008-01-24T18:09:00.000+08:00

& im telling you this.

few more days left.
i just hope i can get through this period of time
w/o getting debarred.
i've been missing ALL my morning lessons!
& exams are coming,
projs are piling up.
presentition/test on almost every single day next week.
how fckedup.

on top of all that,
finals is this sunday

all the best to all the grps tho (:

bliss

2008-01-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

(((((((((((((((((:

though its just making it into finals
im alrd feeling very contented (:
honestly speaking,
i really enjoy every single training we had.
tho there is times whereby we keep scolding each other,
like how mae always scold yen stupidfuck.
i agree to a certain extent tho. lol
she will give pointless comment like,
'eh off center alrdd!!! but uhm where is center?'
that dumbass ! i'll rmb this forever! lol

but still i wanna say,
thanks for making my first funka experience
such an EXPENSIVE (tt stupid zombie costume cost us a bomb can! freaking hundred bucks! somemore ugly! FREEEEEEAKIN ugly! turban!), noisy and enjoyable one (:

lets work harder for finals ! JEAH!

that look in your eyes

i need supports from all over the world

2008-01-09T13:55:00.000+08:00

i spent hours reading through that damn
israel-palestine conflict
and i screwed up
for presentation! WOW (: !!!

many thanks to that one particular IS classmate,
who bombarded us with so many retarded qns
you're so loved srsly (:

guess everybody have been feeling really exhausted
both physically and mentally.
all the schoolwork, work and funka trg.
but we'll pull through, we'll make it there. together (:

unknowingly

2008-01-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

or maybe you could tell me,
how should we go on from here.

when will i see your face again?

2007-12-29T16:06:00.001+08:00

the radio keeps playing this song and im now addicted, oh well.

away

2007-12-29T15:21:00.000+08:00

i just want to go somewhere far away.

not like im unhappy with things thats happening around me,

its just looking at such pictures make you long to have some time for yourself,

away from everybody, just you listening to the cries of the seagulls,

feeling the seabreeze, watching the waves, the stars above you

and lastly take some pictures of yourself

with the lighthouse as the background

post it on your blog showing off to everybody you've been to such a

beautiful place (:

visuals

2007-12-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

i just feel like uploading some random pics for now (:

some time ago when we're practicing for another irwin's item. i couldnt remember what we were doing but it looks quite retarded. hah

lantern festival! :D i miss you bert. srsly really really. abit
bff ! (:
tay huixin! meetup soooooon (:

sorry in.bass we were just kidding lah. you're like our idol (:

i dont like the fact tt i look manly in this picture. lol

you know i love you girls. many more 7 years to go!

you'll be my best xmas gift

2007-12-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

MEEEEEEEEERRY XMAS people!

i know i'll be having so much fun later!
aaaahaaha!
i hope you guys will too ! :D
& i secretly pray tt i wont get things like mug or chocolate
during the gift exchange, pleeeeease.

much love&
i love you guys! (:

honestly, it couldnt have disgust me more.
people get sick &tired of you sometimes,
in case you dont realise.

GIGIGIGIGIGI :D

2007-12-18T14:35:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD!
SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT !
guess who?
damnit damnit damnit! no yen not gigi leong.
ITS GIGI TORRES!
its freakin gigi torres.
hey shes damn cool okay?
and suuuper cute :$
-fell in love

-prints a hundred copies and start pasting pictures around the room
even if i look so freakin weird in this picture. aye

i so wanted to post the pictures i took with patrick chan and lee daniel too,
but i look like i've gt the fattest face in the world !
maybe i really do, which i dont really wish to go think much bout it.
so uhm GIGI (:

i just need to feel needed

the uber sexy friend

2007-12-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

like promised (:
its tt sexy. seriously.

credit: yen's stupid blog who doesnt allow right click therefore i cant save the picture. grrfgh!

STUDY LAH! bye.

von's bday

2007-12-08T13:34:00.000+08:00

i should be studying right now, really.
exam on monday
exam on monday
exam on monday

mmmkay some pictures first (:

so as you can see, its von's bday. that sexay in the last picture
trying to blow out those damn candles tt never seem to die. lol
VERY irriating but fun! (i mean those candles)

also, i have to post this. i cant help.

(ignore me at the bg, my candid shots are always ugly)
wangqing that suay girl!
AHHAHAHAHAHA!
she still looks okay in this picture you know.
you should have seen those with her tying her hair.
(i'll try to dig the pic, its reeeeeally funny. i think its w/ someone but i dontknow who,
i'll post it sooooon! lol)

people, DONT laugh at her. shes like the BEST friend alrd.
just because von needs someone to acc her, wq was, YES chosen. shes like always so lucky (:
imagine she have to walk to cheers (which is some distance away)
in that makeup, speaking alien language with von, carrying a rose
& at the same time act retard. god!
-HUGS lah

before i continue to uhm study

GO ROUGHADDICTS!
I'LL BE HERE CHEERING FOR YOU GUYS
EVERYDAY, EVEN IF I LOOK LIKE A RETARD!
TOGETHER WITH WQ, I'LL DRAG HER ALONG.
ALL THE BEEEEEST! :D

on a brighter note

2007-11-17T12:29:00.000+08:00

(since tegboard wont allow such lengthy reply, i've turned it into a post)

hello zilin dearest,
it proves that we really haven seen each other for
toooo long. i couldnt even recall the last time we met.

oh well, how i hope i could have that amount and length of hair you know
but sadly no. it was extension ):
and it keeps falling off recently.

the first time one bundle (do they call it bundle? mmm nvm)
of it drops is when i was walking to the atrium with xin
and can you imagine walking beside someone and suddenly a whole
bunch of her hair came off. i look like some cancer patient. seriously.
STILL better than allegra, whom came back from the toilet (at work)
and saw one bundle of her hair hanging on her chairback.
HAHAHHAHAHAHA !

&& how i hope you could be here sometimes ):
maybe we'll meet on your bday ! ♥

mmhm ignore the emo post.
at least im still glad i've gt someone to turn to,
to just call and cry to, whine to (:
although i guess she has unintentionally transfered ALLLLL
her bad lucks to me, accumulated over the years kind
but ayeee really, thanks for being
there. if it wasnt for you, talking to me over the phone
listening to me maybe i'll just get banged down by a car w/o anybody knowing
or sth since im soooooo unlucky tt day.
then again. THANKS hug till your eyes buldge out (:

what could be worse

2007-11-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

just when i thought everything is getting better,
im finally a step closer to what i've always wanted to be,
& when im feeling really contented with what i have;
i let myself down.

now everything is taken away from me
and i've only got myself to blame.

who will be there to pick me up?
not you. not now not ever.

xuan & qy

2007-11-15T13:33:00.000+08:00

MONDAY with xuan and qy :D
i haven seen xuan for sooooooooo long !
shes still pretty much the same just,
better hair now, no more frizz,rot,dry, and colourful hair.
just black. i almost couldnt recognise her from the back.
but shes wearing green skinny so i guess it must be her !

besides all the catching up i couldnt believe we went to the
arcade! to kill time before our movie starts.
AHAHHAHAH! not to play para para and DDR of cos.
we just played photohunt, basketball and one very retarded game
which makes us all look like farmers LOL.

pictures to end the post (:

telescope eyes

2007-11-15T13:24:00.001+08:00

im somehow srsly addicted to this idontknow why.

never

2007-11-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

i wasnt prepared for this..

brain game

2007-11-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

THIS IS REEEEEEALLY IRRITATING !
but you should try,

http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,21985,22556281-661,00.html

no matter how hard i try to focus,
i still see it turning in the clockwise direction!
which means i use more of my right brain and that
im a fantasy based person, not reality.
honestly, it makes me feel CHILDISH :/
oh wait talking about fantasizing,
wilbert i know what will you be thinking
you ass. hah okay kidding. wilbert is like how decent :$

&it seems like a NOOOOOOOOO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY case.
i keep closing the window and opening it again
still cannot. still clockwise !
so open close
open close
open close
open close
open close
laptop hang
open close
open close
and srsly
WHY ISNT MY LEFT BRAIN WORKING FOR AT LEAST ABIT !
brain?
like c'mon..
qy could even see it turning in both directions!
even wq managed to see her turn in another direction
for a few seconds. at least A FEW SECONDS !

okay fine. shit my left brain!

eventually words are still words.

you haunt me tonight

2007-11-05T02:11:00.000+08:00

nobody ever told me words like this would bring so
much emotions.

i hear you, i hear you only to know to let it go

2007-11-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

i cannot erase myself enough;
every word i exhale steps into puddles,
soaking my soul through.

maybe i should have tried to explain,
since i know better than anyone else im not
what they think i am.

but in the first place
if they were to know me enough,
why would they even misunderstand?
so in the midst of self-pitying and blaming and..
i chanced upon wq's friendster profile
and saw those lines:

"Never explain yourself to anyone,
because the person who likes you doesnt need it.
the person who dislikes you wont believe it."

at least it gives me a good enough
reason to stop thinking bout it for awhile.

how i wish you could hold me in your mind;
as i reach to hold on for awhile

i hope this week will end soon. horrible

dancing vampires & frankenstein

2007-10-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

HALLOWEEN was such a blast ! :D
had so much fun ytd, tho the earlier part
was kinda screwed.
zouk was srsly overly overcrowded !
but the people there really amazed me !
people with costume like the mask, marilyn monroe,
a whole group of chinese zombie w/ a corny priest,
a chinese couple in 'shou yi' (idk what you call tt) carrying a chinese lantern
and those olden days umbrella. how amusing ! (:
i wanted one toooo but i thought i should saved up on the cost since
im not gonna use the paper umbrella after ytd.

from left: the extremely dirty white cloth handless ghost(yen), not a restaurant waitress/bai nian but a bloody chinese ghost in cheongsum(me), two chinese zombies, a scarface dead chambermaid and as you can see she save SOOO much on her costume tt cheapo girl(von), the 'hot' fangless & super bloody vampire she literally smeared blood all over her face and neck(wq), and lastly the very corny priest.

woody the toy story cowboy(alex) and a chinese vampire that looks really funny NOT scary(bert)

ken & jj

michael jackson (james) w/ wq whom is still holding on to the fake blood capsule -.- she still thinks she dont have enough blood. ayeeeee

its looks kinda scary but look at their shoes -.- i mean srsly..

wq looks kinda sad here and i assume it must be bcos of her foot. who ask her to wear those killer boots lol. and LOOK there in between me & wq, that small head over there its suraiya :D and and there, an orb above us :/ i srsly hope its some dust particles on the lens or sth. must be must be !

HAHAHHAH !

and now, behind all these bloody and scary faces..

gongxi gongxi. xin nian kuai le !

facebook

2007-10-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

omgoodness. i spent like an hour playing facebook :/
i adopted a pet tofu, which i named it daohu (: bit a few people in facebook,
thrown sheeps at some people, tried to attack a few vamps but lost
and did some other weird stuffs.

so while i was exploring ard
i get to know tt wq is secretly doing sth behind my back.
she got me to join facebook, invited me to join her vampire army,
feeds daohu cookie, pets her, give me plant, buy me cake & i was like so happy THEN
i realised she attacked my vampire like everyday to gain points w/o me knowing!
that slypoke. lol but i still love you lah (:

i tried to act smart and attack her vamp den got pwned ):

facebook is kinda fun lah srsly i just hope someone will buy me some animals soon (:
i got a zoo but its empty :/

over-joy

2007-10-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

elated, gay, joyful, delighted, merry, ecstatic, euphoric.. (limited vocabs :/)
but ALLL the words you could ever thought of which has the same
meaning as happy could be used to describe how im feeling now (:

19th oct - HAJI LANE (the present hunt)

i may look constipated but im happy, really 8)

20th oct - XING WANG

MARRAKESH (CLARKQUAY)

HAHA i saw this picture and i laugh like shit. omg it could be more retarded.

terence you srsly look like YOU HUN !

HAHAHAHA the two tards

and wq keep saying 'qu mai yu, mai yu.. (buy fish)' -.-

seriously it has been one of the best bday so far.

i totally love the surprises, the gifts, the cards, the flowers and i esp love the people i get

to spend the day with (:

i shouldnt elaborate further how thankful and how fortunate i think i am.

i can go on for like another 5 days

all that i've wanted to say i've alrd put them down in text and sent it to you guys.

yea, you esp.

still i know i'll get to meet zilin and the secsch mates soon and i cant wait.

i haven been seeing you people for decades :DDD

stila

2007-10-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

OH SHIT ! today marks the end of holiday !
before i could even start to enjoy it ended !
shhhhit !

working at stila over the weekend was fun still.
they're all rather crazy people and we spend most of the time
slacking, taking long lunchbreaks tog and
best of all dancing to music played at the sony's roadshow!
HAHAHAHA

you should have just seen us in those
makeup. esp the RED, THICK & SHINY lips !
its super gross like anybody who kiss us might just get glued to it.
oh well, not everybody could pull off that look
like those models on the mag. we call them sexy
maybe ours will make you think of erm,
sticky, oily & aunty.

ahhh earlier class tmr ! bye

doodle

2007-10-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

'the axe forgets what the tree remembers'

watching chicago on tudou like now&

the dancers were like omg srsly.

so while im waiting for the 4th part to buffer,

i start sketching some weird drawings HAHA

i'll survive through the weekend job !
i srsly need money. LOTS of money !

the dead girl

2007-10-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

the dead girl is the WORST movie ever
ever ever ever ever

you might think its some horror movie
from the sight of the poster and its M18
( idontknow why M18 makes it seems like a horror to me tho)
i thought it'll like prolly scare the shit out of me
or sth BUT
its M18 cos theres some sex and nudity AND its
BAD nudity scene.

like an old lady, discovered that her husband is a psycho killer
den he kept those blood stained lingerie of the dead women in a cupboard.
so in order to get rid of the evidences she drove to some secluded alley
and set all the stuff on fire.
thats not all, den she stripped naked, throw all her clothes into the fire
and drove home naked. nah nudity !
OF AN OLD LADY WHOM POINTLESSLY STRIPS HERSELF NAKED

tian ah, why must i spend 9 dollars on such an exciting movie.

insecurities

2007-10-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

close to hearing you,
far from seeing you.
near to loving you,
further from having you.

theres sth i hated sooo much about myself
like whenever i did sth which seems TOTALLY fine, at least to me.
conscience clear, not sth i should hide/or be guilty of,
i know.
but still i'll be afraid of how/what others might think.

that is also why,
im ALWAYS afraid to meet new people i'll feel so goddamn uncomfortable
like cos first impression counts and i just hate so much to be judged
and and..

schools reopening soon, and it kinda suck.

imagining

2007-10-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

its always talking to wq on msn that i'll become damn talkative.
talking about all the nonsensical things, our dreams, picturing 'us' in the future (:
&this is one of the many many many we talked about:

so if we really couldnt get ourselves a guy in the future,
maybe i could consider joining her and allegra. live together in an apartment
and adopt kids. or better still we could open up to more single women and
turn it into a school like how wq wants it to be. and so i asked her
what will you be teaching then?
we ended up saying maybe we could master some black magic,
walk around with voodoos and start cursing loving couples.
perfect !

ayeee just the sudden talkative mood.

hourglass

2007-09-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

to find myself in the middle,
the waist of the hourglass,
endlessly passed through and passed through
but holds nothing

2007-09-19T02:56:00.000+08:00

as simple as,

because i need you

expection

2007-09-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

ahh i learnt something new today.
the spanish word for shampoo. 'champu'
AHAHA

sucidal iron

2007-09-16T14:43:00.000+08:00

time

2007-09-14T03:44:00.000+08:00

someone once told me 'the only thing that doesnt change is change'
things just wouldnt stay the same over time like
perspectives,
personality,
enviroment,
me, you
&us.

fine. CRAP too bored alrd. its like FOUR-FIFTEEN NOW. YES A.M
&im still sitting on this bloody sofa acting like some no life kid.
but still better than those ahbengs at my void deck playing techno, like now !

best friends

2007-09-10T02:12:00.000+08:00

thats my BEST friend with a rather weird smile on her face (:

notbaldingnotbaldingnotbaldingnotbaldingnotbalding, you didnt see it.

forget yourself

2007-09-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

friend got me a kid to tutor, earn some money so that i'll be able to shop with her soon.
but ENGLISH, math & science.
hello kid, i hope you wont end up in some em3 class next year. i'll pray for you (:
-from your angmohverygood future tuition teacher

like trapped in a quicksand;
everytime i try to get out of it, it sucks me deeper in.
maybe just give those limbs a rest, stay still & be good.
wait for that hand that will come reaching for me ~~soon~~ (:

"develop an interest in life as you see it: in people, things, literature, music
-- the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures,
beautiful souls, and interesting people. forget yourself."
-- henry miller

voodoo girl

2007-09-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

VOODOO GIRL - tim burton

Her skin is white cloth,
and she's all sewn apart
and she has many colored pins
sticking out of her heart.

She has many different zombies
who are deeply in her trance.
She even has a zombie
who was originally from France.

But she knows she has a curse on her,
a curse she cannot win.
For if someone gets
too close to her,

the pins stick farther in.

i might just evolve into a puddle of ~~mud~~ weird substance soon
&the reason i didnt leave hse today is bcos im too lazy to even think of what to wear. oh well, zzz

note to all, regarding that 'sun never SAYS'
srsly trust me i quoted the original.
i know well enough tt its not very convincing since, -cough my bad english
but it really is.
i noticed it really really really.
okay not really.

ps: minz, for you i had those fonts changed to LARGE instead of the usual normal. hah ah ma.

the sun never says

2007-09-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

The Sun Never Says - Hafiz

Even after all this time
The sun never says to the earth,
"You owe Me."

Look what happens with
A love like that,
It lights the Whole Sky.

just how people always say they long to see you so badly.
they'll keep telling you how much they miss, how much they yearn; ever so convincing
yet never will you get their call.

i guess its all a part of coutesy-
at least it makes you feel loved

black friday

2007-09-01T03:55:00.000+08:00

its alrd 4am and im still here.
i just wanna say; sorry if i've upset any of you :/
grrfgh! its another black friday i believe.

soulmate

2007-08-30T16:50:00.000+08:00

"Everybody at my school would tell you I have lots of friends because I have so many acquaintances. The thing with acquaintances is that one acquaintance probably assumes the other acquaintances are your best friends, and the latter group assumes that the original acquaintance is your soul mate, and that's how everybody stays at arm's length."
-Andrea Seigel, Like the Red Panda

because even the fastest runner wouldnt be fast enough to get feelings back.

2007-08-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

i hope you'll be alright soon, really (:
& CONGRATS to all nra grps !

final report

2007-08-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

i guess i missed out this part of 'acknowledgement' on my final report.

I would like to acknowledge and extend my sincere gratitude to the following people whom have made the completion of my final presentation possible:

qytard, for being so surprisingly nice.
helping me w/ the editing and making a trip to cant2 on the day of my presentation just to help me print my final report (cause im like sooooo late) w/ a badly sprained ankle.

gee, for sparing me a space at your place so tt i could finish up my ppt and thanks for driving me home tt night! Tho you claimed tt you regreted cos you chicken-out on your way home. which i srsly unds, since its like 3am and you're driving alone with your triangle plate! but nehmind we're bff, i'll drive you home aft i get mine which is a few years later i guess (:

and dontworry i wont forget you, with my weekly reports. i swear that night is the coolest alrd, having to charge my laptop in kbox therefore singing w/ the tv off. ahaha! anw thanks luh :D

little one

2007-08-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

for those who have been talking to me online,
would have already seen the picture that i've took with
the little one.

BIGbow & thankyou to those whom actually commented that
the puppy looks cute in the picture, (i know PUPPY not me)
but i shall just let you have a look at one of the
NG shots.

very lousy lighting + her constipated face (she didnt fall aslp mind you)

now you know how much effort it takes, for that one particular shot!
she just doesnt want to cooperate!

on a heavier note: if you dont feel for the previous entry that i've posted
seriously, you should go kill yourself

BLUE BLANKET

2007-08-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

what could be more heartrending? ):

Andrea Gibson - Blue Blanket

still

there are days

when there is no way

not even a chance

that i'd dare for even a second
glance at the reflection of my body in the mirror
and she knows why

like i know why
she
only cries
when she feels like she's about to lose control

she knows how much control is worth
knows what a woman can lose
when her power to move

is taken away

by a grip so thick with hate
it could clip the wings of god
leave the next eight generations of your blood shaking

and tonight something inside me is breaking

my heart beating so deep beneath the sheets of her pain
i could give every tear she's crying
a year---a name
and a face i'd forever erase from her mind if i could
just like she would
for me

or you

but how much closer to free would any of us be
if even a few of us forgot
what too many women in this world
i'm thinking

what the hell would you tell your daughter

your someday daughter
when you'd have to hold her beautiful face
to the beat up face of this place
that hasn't learned the meaning of

stop

what would you tell your daughter
of the womb raped empty
the eyes swollen shut
the gut too frightened to hold food
the thousands upon thousands of bodies used and abused

it was seven minutes of the worst kind of hell
seven

and she stopped believing in heaven
distrust became her law
fear her bible
the only chance of survival

don't trust any of them

bolt the doors to your home
iron gate your windows
walking to your car alone
get the keys in the lock
please please please please open
like already you can feel
that five fingered noose around your neck
two hundred pounds of hatred
digging graves into the sacred soil of your flesh

please please please please open
already you're choking for your breath

listening for the broken record of the defense
answer the question
answer the question
answer the question miss

why am i on trial for this

would you talk to your daughter
your sister your mother like this
i am generations of daughters sisters mother
sour bodies battlefields
war grounds

do you know they've found land mine
sin broken women's souls
black holes in the parts of their hearts
that once sang symphonies of creation
bright as the light on infinity's halo

she says
i remember the way love
used to glow like glitter on my skin
before he made his way in
now every touch feels like a sin
that could crucify medusa kali oshun mary
bury me in a blue blanket
so their god doesn't know i'm a girl
cut off my curls
i want peace when i'm dead

her friend knocks at the door
it's been three weeks
don't you think it's time you got out of bed

no

the ceiling fan still feels like his breath
i think i need just a couple more days of rest

please

bruises on her knees from praying to forget
she's heard stories of vietnam vets
who can still feel the tingling of their amputated limbs
she's wondering how many women are walking around this world
feeling the tingling of their amputated wings
remembering what it was to fly to sing

tonight she's not wondering
what she would tell her daughter

she knows what she would tell her daughter
she'd ask her
what gods do you believe in
i'll build you a temple of mirrors so you can see them!

pick the brightest star you've ever wished on
i'll show you the light in you
that made that wish come true!

tonight she's not asking
you what you would tell your daughter
she's life deep in the hell---the slaughter
has already died a thousand deaths with every unsteady breath
a thousand graves in every pore of her flesh
and she knows the war's not over
there's bleeding to come
knows she's far from the only woman or girl
trusting this world no more than the hands
trust rusted barbed wire

she was whole before that night
believed in heaven before that night
and she's not the only one

she knows she won't be the only one
she's not asking what you're gonna tell your daughter
she asking what you're gonna teach

your son

love geometry

2007-08-06T14:19:00.000+08:00

Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight

i miss dancing so sooo much !

who says its a square?
i say its a triangle (:

the simpsons

2007-08-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

maybe idont really know how to appreciate such movies
but why? srsly, tell me
do ppl like ter says its freakin nice he laughed like shit
throughout the entire movie
when i only find the 'spider-pig' & maybe some other parts
of it abit funny =/

(im refering to 'the simpsons' anyway)

oh well,
i think hes just easily entertained
nth to do with my sense of humour
this im pretty sure (:

//edit
im quitting

since when?

2007-07-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

New Drug Deletes Bad Memories
Bill Christensen, Technovelgy.comLiveScience.com
Mon Jul 2, 11:55 PM ET

Do you have a really bad memory, or past heartache,
that you would prefer to forget?

Researchers at Harvard and McGill University (in Montreal)
are working on an amnesia drug that blocks or deletes bad memories.
The technique seems to allow psychiatrists to disrupt the
biochemical pathways that allow a memory to be recalled.

In a new study, published in the Journal of Psychiatric Research,
the drug propranolol is used along with therapy to "dampen" memories
of trauma victims. They treated 19 accident or rape victims for ten days,
during which the patients were asked to describe their memories
of the traumatic event that had happened 10 years earlier.
Some patients were given the drug, which is also used to treat amnesia,
while others were given a placebo.
A week later, they found that patients given the drug showed
fewer signs of stress when recalling their trauma.

Similar research led by Professor Joseph LeDoux has been carried out
at New York University on rats; scientists were able to remove
a specific memory from the brains of rats while leaving the rest
of the animals' memories intact.

An amnesia drug called U0126 was administered.
The rats were trained to associate two musical tones with a mild electrical shock
so that when they heard either of the tones they would brace
themselves for a shock. The researchers then gave half the rats
the drug when playing one of the musical tones.
After the treatment, the rats that had been given the drug no longer
associated that particular tone with an imminent shock but
still braced themselves upon hearing the second tone,
demonstrating only one memory had been deleted.

if only by taking the drug could help to skip that 9 years.
maybe we'll be much closer now.
still love you tho ♥

for someone whom dislike tattoo SOOO much,
i thought this is like WOWWWW..

but sad ~~& it'll look like shit if you didnt put your hand tog. esp the left hand! hah~~

since when?